The 8 month .

Well , the past few days was still good . Went curve having lunch eating and movie . I really miss that day noww ... So badly ~ But i guess it will never be the same anymore if its come to the future . I dunno what I'm writting but I'm deeply depressed . One day , I'll go crazyyyy . With this emotion up and down lingering in my heart like the ball is bouncing so hard . At least at least , when after the fight all I do was to forget everything and act like nothing so your heart doesnt feel so bad . But what did you do in return ? Keep being so cold to me , leave me alone just like that whenever you wished . You said I always act like nothing but in fact you didnt realise what you did in return to me .


Today is our 8th monthsary , while writting this posr it was 8:07 PM . 4 more hours to go , before it strike sharp at 12 AM . Will you ever remember today ? Or do you remember it but like you say you want me to do the first step ? I really got no answer . All I know is every month of 20th my heart is tearing , my mood is unstable , I feel like shouting , I feel like crying . But all I got is cuddling my son and crying alone . Every month of today , I'm celebrating my own .. And you celebrate it with your friend . Every month of today , you NEVER wished me . Every month of today , is like a nightmare to me . Every month of today is telling me how much you never care and how STUPID am I for waiting a text from you , just a text from you . I dont even dare to dream more now ... Not to say dinner or hanging out . I wish you could just wish me before 12 . Can miracle happened to me ? 


Do you know , when visiting mummy she asked me why are you not with me ? Do you know , when Pinky go surf internet looking at my FB why my relationship status was It's complicated ? Do you know , even my granny can feel like we've got a wall in between .. Even I didnt talk to her about our stuff so often . Do you ever know ? Do you ever know ?


If you have loved me , you'll never treat me this way . If you have loved me , you'll remember today . I understand that sometimes too busy might tend to forget but not every month right ?! If you have loved me , you'll never let me down , let me tear , let me had a broken heart , let me suffer with emotion . If you have loved me , you'll appreciate me and I'll feel appreciated . If you have loved me , you wont make me hesitate your love towards me . If you haved love me , you'll assure me . If you have loved me , you give security that I wanted so badly . 


I'm sorry for caring so much , I'm sorry for telling everything of you to your mum . Because I care like nobody business . I'm sorry for doing so much . I'm sorry for throwing temper . I'm sorry for always talk about money and MONEY MINDED $$  all the time to you . I'm sorry for using all your money . I'm sorry for hurting you . I'm sorry loving you because everything you do you hurt me so much . I'm sorry . But if and only if after saying Im sorry everything will be restart . If and only if ......

Happy 8 monthsary to myself ...

Jay Chou : Mine Mine

 

沒有你的生活 我開始寫小說
Mei you ni de sheng huo wo kai shi xie xiao shuo
好多畫面好多靈感 我要把稿費都給你
Hao duo hua mian hao duo ling gan wo yao ba gao fei dou gei ni
巷口不小心經過 你的車子依舊停在紅線
Xiang kou bu xiao xin jing guo ni de che zi yi jiu ting zai hong xian
幫你繳罰單 你叫我別管 我才想到我們已經分開
Bang ni jiao fa dan ni jiao wo bie guan wo cai xiang dao wo men yi jing fen kai

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想起那一個夏天 那不是那不是那是冬天
Xiang qi na yi ge xia tian na bu shi na bu shi na shi dong tian
想起你生氣的臉 每天就像冬天 唉唉唉
Xiang qi ni sheng qi de lian mei tian jiu xiang dong tian ai ai ai
你說那是愛愛愛
Ni shuo na shi ai ai ai

誰該堅強起來 月亮還是太陽
Shui gai jian qiang qi lai yue liang hai shi tai yang
是誰遮了誰 是誰都會依賴
Shi shui zhe le shui shi shui du hui yi lai
你說已分開 為什麼還要幫你撐傘
Ni shuo yi fen kai wei shen me hai yao bang ni cheng san

[Chorus]
Coz baby you are Mine Mine
Mine Mine Mine Mine Mine
Mine Mine
Mine Mine Mine Mine Mine
太快 就承認认 我真的很想你
Tai kuai jiu cheng ren wo zhen de hen xiang ni
會不會沒有男子氣概
Hui bu hui mei you nan zi qi gai

You say Bye Bye
Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye
Oh Bye Bye
Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye
拆開 我的心隨你看 滿滿的都是愛
Chai kai wo de xin sui ni kan man man de dou shi ai

我的眼皮跳一下 代表你在想我
Wo de yan pi tiao yi xia dai biao ni zai xiang wo
我的耳朵癢一下 代表你在講我壞話
Wo de er duo yang yi xia dai biao ni zai jiang wo huai hua
我沒這麼不好吧 不用跟朋友說吧
Wo mei zhe me bu hao ba bu yong gen peng you shuo ba
如果以後和好了 看到你朋友不是很尷尬
Ru guo yi hou he hao le kan dao ni peng you bu shi hen gan ga

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騙誰 我說的氣話都收回
Pian shui wo shuo de qi hua dou shou hui
我寫的小說根本是空白黑夜
Wo xie de xiao shuo gen ben shi kong bai hei ye
你說既然已分開 為何還要幫你撐傘
Ni shuo ji ran yi fen kai wei he hai yao bang ni cheng san

嘜嘜 你嘜擱嘜擱偷偷離開
Mai mai lu mai go mai go thau thau li khui
嘜嘜 你嘜擱嘜擱偷偷離開
Mai mai lu mai go mai go thau thau li khui
嘜驚 我不會放你一人治那
Mai kiann wo bu hui pang ni ji rang di na
你想祙有人靠有人會疼
Ni xiang mei you ren kao you ren hue thiann

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嘜吶 你雨傘雨傘趕緊打開
Mai na li hoo suann hoo suann kuann kin ta khui
嘜吶 你雨傘雨傘趕緊打開
Mai na li hoo suann hoo suann kuann kin ta khui
嘜鬧 落大雨你淋雨我艱苦
Mai nau loh tua hoo li lim hoo gua kan khoo
落大雨我没你會艱苦
Loh tua hoo gua hoo li e kan khoo