I can't choose .

I always can't choose just some particular part of life . I admit I might be a lil pessimistic . No . Perhaps very pessimistic indeed . I'm tired of being the best for everyone . I'm just a lil girl who needs attention and shower with a lil care . Ain't asking much but somehow I wish you guys listen to what I trying to bring out deep down in my heart . I quite dumb sometimes , I can't speak out what I feel most of the time . I would just can write it down to release my feelings . I hate the way I am . I tried hard and I just can't . Now make me realise of who is the one who understand me well . LOL . Everything over is over . I have to walk away from those history . I can't see myself in the future in a much better way . I cry and cry . Nothing's gonna make me feel alright . I need a phone call . I wish to talk . Tomorrow have to wake early just for the fucking sales report . It's killing me . Life ain't easy I understand but I'm too exhausted with this condition . How wish if I have the braveness to end up my life . This kind of mood I didn't know how am I suppose to work tomorrow . I didn't know how long can I stand . The feel of depressed always follows me .