changes .

Well , the thing I don't wish to came finally arrived . OMG ! I didn't know it came all so sudden . Quite shock till I got numb with the decision had made . I wonder if it's a good decision or a better way to had a brighter future ? Seems like there's no body could tell me the specific answer . I wish that it was so yesterday so I could live it fully like the way I wish ( before I'm sad larhhh ) . 


I always cant choose the thing I want . My family . My every lil thing of mine . I was always being treated like a chess .. and I do really hate it . People out there might say you're pretty good because you can always had the thing you want .. ( dont compare me with jime la of course ) But who knows that all I wish was just a lil family warm and all I want is to feel once again to have dinner with my parents and my family member .. at least just ONCE ? I try hardly to remember those time .. But I guess I don't even had it once . LOL ! Back to reality , that wish must be IMPOSSIBLE . So forget that =.= 


Went to Taylor this morning for the damn registeration for july intake . I hide all my tears so badly from being seen . Friends around me tend to said that I'm stupid because Taylor was like a dream college of almost everyone . But who knews that what I wish and what I want TT 


Back to class QM class cancelled =.= So tot of going salak selatan to had lunch with mummy but ended up with college friends . I just too afraid of facing the reality of she'll said that she's got no this and that ... Arghhh ! Whatever !! I was actually wanted to tell her that I dont want to change college !! DARN ! 


Things turn out to be differently then I imagine .. Changes is going to arrive in my life real soon . Kind of fast version one for me )= Haiihhh ! To restart my new life in new enviroment I'm afraid I can't make it . I don't use to talk to people first .. ( weakness yang tak boleh dimaaf ! ) Die die die !

Wish me all the best ..